I would have liked to have lived a "normal" life, but it just wasn't meant to be. The life of a military brat, at least in my case, disrupted what would have been normal transitions in a young person's life.
For example, school. Most kids start in one school district, and finish there; some may do K-6 in a Catholic School then move on to the middle and high school years, friends in tact. I on the other hand went through, to the best of my recollection, went to at least 6 schools K-6. I entered middle school at an Air Force base, after spending 2 years at an all-boys boarding school. (I'm not complaining, it was fun there.) However, the mixture of girls, puberty and being the "new guy," does have an effect on one's psyche.
It is tough to have normal relationships, when you never really experienced them. It is difficult to get close to people when you spent much of your formative years, not getting close, as you knew there would be no long term relationships; as you, or someone in your circle, would be moving in a year, or two, or three. The foundation of my growing up was definitely built on shifting sands.
Now that I am older, I have a better understanding of myself, a faith in God, and still carry some of my relationship destroying ways; some have said that I can seem emotionless. I don't disagree, a I spent much of my childhood putting them away, so I wouldn't get hurt.
Over my lifetime, I have moved almost thirty times; not a harbinger for a normal, stable life. It is, what it is, and you do with life what you can. If you find one person to call a friend, you are indeed fortunate. If you have more than that, write a book, I'll buy it.
The only regret would I do have, is not being introduced to Jesus Christ at an early age. He is the one true friend that will never leave you, accept you as you are, and give you peace. I find great comfort, even in my darkest moments, knowing that He is there, and I can talk to Him.
My prayer for you, is that you find Him, and let Him be your Lord and Savior. If you already know Him, but have gone off the narrow path, know that He is there waiting for you to come back home.
We all have a little Prodigal Son in us.
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Midnight Rider
Gregg Allman
Well, I've got to run to keep from hiding
And I'm bound to keep on riding
And I've got one more silver dollar
But I'm not gonna let them catch me, no
Not gonna let 'em catch the midnight rider
And I don't own the clothes I'm wearing
And the road goes on forever
And I've got one more silver dollar
But I'm not gonna let them catch me, no
Not gonna let 'em catch the midnight rider
And I've gone by the point of caring
Some old bed I'll soon be sharing
And I've got one more silver dollar
But I'm not gonna let 'em catch me, no
Not gonna let them catch the midnight rider
No I'm not gonna let 'em catch me, no
Not gonna let them catch the midnight rider
No, I'm not gonna let 'em catch me, no
I'm not gonna let them catch the midnight rider
But I'm not gonna let 'em catch me, no
Not gonna let them catch the midnight rider
For example, school. Most kids start in one school district, and finish there; some may do K-6 in a Catholic School then move on to the middle and high school years, friends in tact. I on the other hand went through, to the best of my recollection, went to at least 6 schools K-6. I entered middle school at an Air Force base, after spending 2 years at an all-boys boarding school. (I'm not complaining, it was fun there.) However, the mixture of girls, puberty and being the "new guy," does have an effect on one's psyche.
It is tough to have normal relationships, when you never really experienced them. It is difficult to get close to people when you spent much of your formative years, not getting close, as you knew there would be no long term relationships; as you, or someone in your circle, would be moving in a year, or two, or three. The foundation of my growing up was definitely built on shifting sands.
Now that I am older, I have a better understanding of myself, a faith in God, and still carry some of my relationship destroying ways; some have said that I can seem emotionless. I don't disagree, a I spent much of my childhood putting them away, so I wouldn't get hurt.
Over my lifetime, I have moved almost thirty times; not a harbinger for a normal, stable life. It is, what it is, and you do with life what you can. If you find one person to call a friend, you are indeed fortunate. If you have more than that, write a book, I'll buy it.
The only regret would I do have, is not being introduced to Jesus Christ at an early age. He is the one true friend that will never leave you, accept you as you are, and give you peace. I find great comfort, even in my darkest moments, knowing that He is there, and I can talk to Him.
My prayer for you, is that you find Him, and let Him be your Lord and Savior. If you already know Him, but have gone off the narrow path, know that He is there waiting for you to come back home.
We all have a little Prodigal Son in us.
*****************************************************************************
Midnight Rider
Gregg Allman
Well, I've got to run to keep from hiding
And I'm bound to keep on riding
And I've got one more silver dollar
But I'm not gonna let them catch me, no
Not gonna let 'em catch the midnight rider
And I don't own the clothes I'm wearing
And the road goes on forever
And I've got one more silver dollar
But I'm not gonna let them catch me, no
Not gonna let 'em catch the midnight rider
And I've gone by the point of caring
Some old bed I'll soon be sharing
And I've got one more silver dollar
But I'm not gonna let 'em catch me, no
Not gonna let them catch the midnight rider
No I'm not gonna let 'em catch me, no
Not gonna let them catch the midnight rider
No, I'm not gonna let 'em catch me, no
I'm not gonna let them catch the midnight rider
But I'm not gonna let 'em catch me, no
Not gonna let them catch the midnight rider
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